An invitation.. aha!

I've been asked to go to Bliss tonite. I think I shall. It's about time I got out and shook some booty. Maybe I'll even have some fun.

No, it's almost finished...

I realize I'm wasting away my life. I mean, I've known it. According to my scientific calculations when I was 16 years old, I'm supposed to be a millionaire right about now... so much for that. I also feel that maybe I'm depressed. Sometimes I wake up and wish I could just lie in bed. But then I have things to do, so I wake up and get dressed. But somehow I can't seem to get myself out the front door. So I just sit there. And when I do go out and meet people, I laugh and I talk but it feels like... I don't know. Like I know something sad but I can't pin point it. So I laugh and talk, but I wish I were at home coz I don't feel like doing anything.

Yes... that's about it. I think that maybe I've always been a little depressed. But somehow when I met Amit, he sorta distracted me. So I didn't quite feel depressed. That's probably why when he used to go out and I had to be alone it felt so... like this feeling was catching up with me. And I couldn't take it. Now he's gone, and I've got no distraction. And this feeling is all around me again. Everything is so quiet. My thoughts are practically shouting at me. I can feel every single emotion. And the worse thing is, I don't even feel like going out and cheering myself up. I just don't want to move.

Shit, this is so depressing... I hope I can shake this feeling off. I must...

There she goes...

What an interesting day. First of all, I'm not at all proud that I didn't make it for class. Got all dressed up and all.. but just couldn't myself out the door. Sigh... Instead stayed at home working on this new layout. I feel like it's too simple and yet too much. I'm not too happy with it. Especially since I still can't get the scripts to do what I want. Whatever man...

Anyway, I found a new place to eat today thanks to Roland. It's this nice 24hour joint that serves local as well as western dishes. Cool. Just the kind of place I need since I'm always looking for food at the weirdest times. Anyways, instead of watching Shanghai Knights like I wanted to ended up in Tina's place with Janyse, Roland and Marcel. And of course we smoked a bit. But Tina wanted to go to Bliss and 'maybe' meet up with James. They've got this weird play-hard-to-get thingy going on. Of course James didn't turn up at Bliss... instead ended up talking to DJ Love thanks to Janyse. Sigh... we might go for Regenerate 5 at The Viper Room. Spacebar will be playing and I'd like to catch them.

Well, I hope I catch class tommorow, I mean it's already like 6am and I should be asleep. I really shouldn't hang out so much. Oh yea, I need cat food... hmm...

Run Hani run...

Man, I'm turning into a real stoner. I usually never smoke in the day time, but today i just lit up and watched 'Old School'. Heh, it was pretty funny. Or maybe it was the weed... hmm.. nah, I think it was quite funny. I also watched 'Run Lola Run' at the Sobranie Theatre with Sandra. Good show I think. I love the way they shot the movie. It's just so rich and full of color. I want to watch 'Monsoon Wedding', but apparantly there's some complication and they're not going to show it. Damn..

Anyways, after the movie Sandra and I went to Jalan Alor and had a drink at The Green Man. Sat there and talked for quite a bit. It was quite cool. Yesterday I was with Kath then met up with Janyse and had a drink at The Social. I've been having a lot of drinks lately. Considering I never used to have ANY drinks at all. I think I feel it's my responsability to take over Amit's alcoholic habits. ha ha

Neways, tomorrow school starts again. Man, the thought of going to class is just so... argh! Sigh. Why do I feel so lifeless? I wish I could just lie down and well... just stay there. Not moving...

On a brighter note, Charlie is being a good Kittie. I have to take him for his vaccination shot soon. So I guess I'd better feed him the deworming tablet like they told me to. I think he's so adorable. He keeps trying to bite my ear. Poking his wet nose here and there. he he.

I miss Amit...

It's Alive...

Quite a lot happened today as opposed to yesterday. I'm back home now. Earlier Kath called asking for a lift since I was going back to KL, but I had to pick her up all the way from Melacca then go back to KL. What a drag. But eh.. it's ok. I didn't mind that much. It was fun. Sorta like a little road trip, where we didn't really stop anywhere. Ok... I'm gonna write this down tommorow. I'm too stoned for this now...