Happy Birthday Janyse!

She tried to sneakily keep her birthday from all of us. But AHA! me remembered anyways. Can't be with her today because I'm back home with me parents. But I'll celebrate with her tommorow.

A certain Tze Lou will be leaving for the States tonite. I'm just trying to cope with the fact that I won't be able to see him for more than a month, and that he won't be here for my birthday. Not that it mattered if he was here for my birthday, because he has a girlfriend - and it isn't me. Lou keeps me from thinking about Amit. So where I would normally be thinking about Amit, I now think about Lou, which just about brings me right back to square one, but somehow it's all nicely rationalised in my head. Of course this is all one sided. Lou has no part in my obsession with him. I bump into him in clubs and have snippets of drunken conversation (him drunk, me stupid) with him.

Yes, you can safely call me a freaky freak now. Ah... but fear not... I HAVE A PLAN! or rather, Janyse has a plan. I'm not quite sure what is just yet, but I feel safe knowing one of us sees the bigger picture.

It's been a while

Today I saw Lou in Nouvo with his 18 year old girlfriend called Sophie. Ah... what a feeling.

I can't feel my toes. I can't think of anything to write. I'm a little bit numb. Screwing up a little. I miss Amit...

Charlie's flea problem is over for now. And her fur is so soft and shiny. Yet sometimes I think Charlie is a little devil disguised as a soft, furry, cute little kitten sent here on earth to torment the hell outta me. I may be wrong, but sometimes I need a lot of convincing...

this is Charlie pretending to be a big macho cat.



this is how Charlie really is... heh heh...

I love my cat...