Sigh..

Last nite was fun. I mean, it's been ages since I last drank. And Janyse.. it's almost impossible to get her to drink. But drink we did (as you can tell from my last entry). And drunk we became.

Luckily (and surprisingly) I didn't have a hangover. And not surprisingly, I felt so alone. Amit hasn't even bothered to... nothing at all. I wonder if he misses me. I wish he were here with me. Somehow when I was with him, I always felt like however bad life became, it'll all work out in the end.

Am I overreacting?

I must be...

We were high

So, Janyse and I got ourselves a bottle of tequila... you can just about guess what that leads to. I found a couple of shot glasses in the cupboard and we got drunk out of our knickers. HUrrAh!

We decided we wanted men who are good looking, kind and with big dicks. Hahaha! Actually, I'm kinda drunk now, so I shouldn't be writing this.

Later... hahah

Happy, happy... heh

At Last we part...

Amit and I have finally broken up.
All because of his lousy car. It was time anyways. I miss him, and am a little addicted to the good times that the prospect of breaking up with him was scary. I'm afraid I might not be able to find anyone else. But I know I will. And this is the best time. He's far away. But I know he'll be back soon and the prospect of seeing him is also scary. And knowing Amit, if he were to see me, he'll act in a really childish way like ignoring me or purposely rubbing up some girl just to piss me off.

And I hate the way he argues. He never gives me closure. I hope he does. It seems like such a shame though. I thought that we'd be great friends even when we finally did break up. God knows that he treats his friends better than his chicks. I guess not.

I had typed out a lot of things here in anger. But I decided not to post it. I loved Amit. I think maybe he loved me too. We're just not meant to be I guess. As a last gesture, I'm going to fix his car and pass it to Abe like he asked me to. It's not my car to keep and he can do whatever he wants with it.

Amit.
I hope you get what you want in life. Hopefully you get your PR and get to stay here for as long as you want. Don't forget me. I really hope we can remain friends. My place is always open to you if you need a place to stay. And Charlie will always be our cat.

It sucks having to break up online. I'm so upset. It can't be described in words.