Of the girl...

I'm all giggly because I got a poem. tee hee... thank you Nameless Soul.

She fades into consciousness
and chokes on the thick air
of false beliefs and broken promises
that surrounds her being.

Things always change.
Familiar becomes unfamiliar.
Faces become blank stares
in the seas of blatant lies.

She sits back to rationalize her actions and words
but the reality of things
shows that actions and words are meaningless
to the short reality she faces.

But, things always change.
Unlucky becomes lucky.
Faces become vivacious stares
in the seas of tremendous devotions.

She must drift away from dreaming
of an ideal time for everything.
The passage of time
will create a new meaning
free from the pain of pleasure.
She must seize it.

-nameless

Happy Belated Birthday Darren and Junu!

I feel so bad, I sorta forgot their birthdays... well, I didn't really forget, I just forgot to send them cards. Sorry Darren, I know you're the 'bitchier' of the two, so I'm wishing you now... Happy Birthday!. I love you both, and miss you like crazy.

Yesterday someone sent me a poem, because I seem like such a sad person. Thank you 'Nameless Soul'. I really do huh? But in the real world, I don't go through life moping and looking sad. Most of the time I look normal and happy. I'm glad I do. I hate people asking me 'what's wrong?' I don't have enough time to tell them what's wrong.

Here's a pic of Darren looking all big and bad like he's going to whack me for forgetting his Birthday..

Visit Darren's band's website www.avenpitch.com

This thing doesn't work

My movielog page doesn't seen to be updating eventhough I've added a few new entries... sigh... I'm forever bumping heads with blogger.

Happy Birthday Kath

Belated birthday actually. Two down, four more to go. I feel like my friends are rolling pins, being knocked down one by one as their big day arrives. Kath is my best and oldest friend. I've known her since I was 9. She's the only one who can be sincerely happy for me when good things happen. And I appreciate and love her for that.

Janyse and I have decided to start our own little mini business. I hate to say anything too soon, but I hope it works out. Even if it doesn't, it's all good, since we needed almost no capitol to begin with.

Last nite I met up with Ganesh, an old school friend whom I've known since I was 12. I haven't seen him or my other school buddies for ages. I found out that Balan, a boy who constantly had teachers wanting to choke him (he was the kid who always had the smart-alec answers in class), a boy who found every opportunity to skip class and play football, had now become a chemical engineer.

WHAT!?

How'd that happen. When did I blink my eye and land on a parallel universe? Or was I so jaded not to realise that people change? That even the boy who everyone thought was going to become a salesperson or something could become a bloody chemical engineer, and a girl (another class mate) who is intelligent, pretty and charming is now working in MPH bookstores as a sales clerk. This brought me back to Amit. Would Amit change? Would I? I know I changed a lot for him. But did he change at all for me? Have I changed at all to my friends? How much change is needed to be considered a 'change'? Were we wrong to break up? Or would it have been better to stick to it till one of us 'changed'?